Gypsy soul

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I’ve always gotten so easily bored, I never understood why I kept wanting and wondering.

Because of circumstances in my life I was unable to travel the way I wanted to but there were different parts of the world that call my name.

More so the Southwest, Vegas, places that I’ve never seen before  and of course it’s hard when you have small children and you’re grounded because of school because of their friends their life you just can’t get up  And go. You have responsibilities we have kids. And as much as a single mother would like to take her children everywhere that her heart desires on these road trips to other countries it’s hard. And this is not the woe is me factor this is the reality of it.

I’ve wondered too why so many things I do are so in the moment impulsive spontaneous as if I’m just like a free person ,free spirit. My love for nature..my love everything beautiful. My Passion to be just free just to be who I am. That wondering that wandering its endless.

I really dont care about what other people think except from my kids. In relationships I can never be told what to do ..ever.  When I’m dating or in a relationship I can’t have that other person  Give a    Hint that they are telling me what to do because it turns me off.

Sometimes in relationships and dating I easily get bored. It’s more so easily turned off because I don’t like being told what to do, I don’t like being asked what time im  coming home ,I don’t like any of that period I don’t like people checking in on me and expecting me to tell them my whereabouts I’ve never been like this and I never will be.

And I feel as though my soul needs to be constantly awoken stimulated happy free. I feel like a constantly have to be on the move doing something creating, poetry, writing, art.

I need inspiration I need someone to inspire me sometimes and when I feel that I’m not getting that of someone there comes the gypsy soul and I feel it’s time for me to go.

 

 

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YOUR HUSBAND CHEATED ON YOU, So now what?

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And then They lived happily ever after… the End.

Well there’s a lot more after that then just the white horses and the beautiful white dress. Marriage is Rarely a happily ever after.

You make mad passionate love, you kiss him good bye in the morning, you go about your day thinking of him texting him calling him. And you know what’s weird??…hes also reciprocating this to you.

You go home you talk about your day you eat you want a little TV or you go out and you do something fun.

You wake up the next morning you get ready for work, kiss him good-bye, he goes about his day you go about your day and then the next day is the same and the day after that ..it’s the same you develop a routine. Wash rinse ,lather.. repeat.

But You guys are still in love and you’re married so everything is gonna be OK you’re planning a family or maybe already have a family. So life is what it is and you know what?? It’s great!!! this is the person that you’re going to grow old with.

You are going to buy the big beautiful house in the suburbs. You’re gonna get a dog ,you gonna go on these vacations together that everybody’s going to envy and you can put it on Facebook too.

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Everything is so magnificent until one day you find out… Hes having an affair on you.

Your whole entire being, your whole world everything that you have lived for was him. You’re beautiful wedding that you spent a pretty penny on… all the preparation everything. The house, the kisses, the car ,”the I love you’s”.
what about all of that????

Your world comes crashing down ,you don’t care about anything else and you just can’t believe that this person that you have given your soul to has betrayed you in such a way.

At 1st maybe you want to hear every last detail of the disgustingness that has occurred. It’s not a good idea to do that because honestly that will never leave your head.

Probably the 2nd thing you want to do is get far away from him and make him show you that he wants you and only ..you some kind of competition.

But let’s be real, Do You stay married to this man? A man who has defied you in such a way that is extremely hard to ever come back from?

Unless you really don’t care about sharing bodies.

This gets a lot more complicated when you guys have children together. A lot of women stay just because of the children and this decision is based solely upon the children.

Do you learn to live with this and pretend it never happened? Do you earn back the relationship and let him earn back his trust? Do you get your vengeance on him?

Or do you leave? Do you leave it all and walk away. After all, he already has walked away on you by cheating.
Do you give it one more time 1 more try to see if he won’t do it again?

This is the hardest thing to go through in a relationship other than being sick.

I must say ,its a wonderful feeling to lay my head down at night and not worry that I’m being cheated on !!

If you remain in a relationship with a someone that has already cheated on you, how can your mind really honestly rest and know that he will never do this to you again? There is always that slight possibility that he will.

So what is the decision that you will make?

Is he really worth all that you have?

The Savage Senseless Murder of 15 Year Old Lesandro Guzman Feliz- Junior

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This is Unimaginable heartbreak.

More than all too often we hear about senseless crimes in our New York City streets.

The despair of mothers losing their children has become sadly common in this unfortunate sleepless city.
Gangs,Petty fights, among other crimes lead to Innocent bystanders becoming victims of violence.

How many times has a stray bullet killed an innocent person?…a child?

I’m sure by now everyone knows the Story of Lesandro Guzman Feliz. Everyone knew him as Junior.

An innocent beautiful child who was brutally murdered for no reason and taken away from his Mother before his time.

This summer 15 year old Junior, who normally was at home enjoying family company and playing video Games decided to meet a Friend on a warm summer night just like any other teenager.

His mom was very protective of Junior she wanted him home right away. He told her not to worry and that he would be right back. He told her he would be in the area and won’t be long

Never could anyone fathom what would become of a simple walk in his own neighborhood.

A friend he usually hung out with asked him for some money for food. His mother gave Junior $5 to go downstairs and give to the boy for food. Junior met with his friend and like any other 15 year old he wanted just to hang out and talk for a Bit.

On the that night a parent’s worst nightmare occurred.Junior was chased by gang members who suspected he was in a rival gang. These gang members chased him for blocks on end. Junior ran inside a well known Bodega that he had frequented since he was a little boy with his Mother.

He ran Inside and desperately hopped over the counter in order to hide from his attackers.In an instant reaction the store owner at 1st pushed him away. According to all of the camera footage it appears that Junior hid for only a second till the gang members entered the store and found him. They argued inside the store for a few brief seconds and then the unimaginable happened.

What I’m about to explain to you right now will not be very detailed at all. This heinous act was all caught on video. I would not recommend for anyone to watch this because it’s so disturbing. Unfortunately a coworker Showed this to me and I was unable to ever get this out of my head.

The gang members dragged Junior outside the store, Junior desperately trying to cling on to whatever he could to not be dragged out. Dragged outside, where he was then attacked by at least 7 other gang members with knives and machetes. The gang members attacked him viciously with these weapons repeatedly.
He was then sliced in his throat and pushed Back inside of the Bodega on a 183rd street and Bathgate Avenue in The Bronx.

Junior, in the store obvious desperation for help. His blood from his wounds from all over his body on to the bodega counter.The store owner And the store employees then pointed outside the door. Later on they said they were pointing towards the hospital. But no one accompanied Junior to the hospital that was a block away? The store employees allowed Junior to leave alone, they actually instructed him, a 15 year old child to go.

Debates on whether or not the store owner even called 911 are still unknown.

This is all on the video. Junior is shown running across the street after he is brutally attacked, up the block towards the hospital where he reaches the front of hospital and collapses.

Oddly enough,as he crosses third Avenue, an ambulance is waiting at the light as he passes in front of them.
He passed away in the hospital.

It was later discovered that he was senselessly murdered in a case of mistaken identity.

The violence in New York City is completely out of hand. Politicians are not doing anything to get gang members of the streets or to create safe havens for the youth.
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I did not know Junior nor his family, however his story has stuck with me and repeated in my head so many times. This is so sad especially being that I grew up in that area and I know all too well what the violence there is like.

I think now in this day and age it has gotten even worse.

All of the 14 adult Suspects who were involved in Juniors murder have been arrested and are awaiting trial.
His mother is so soft spoken and strong, my heart goes out to her.
I really hope that there is Justice for Junior.

Junior was a great student and a member of the NYPD police cadets for the youth. He wanted to be a detective when he grew up.He was never in a gang of any sort. This was complete mistaken identity.

I don’t usually write about current events although I do love writing about everything and anything but this story just touched me so much and I’m sure it’s touched hundreds of thousands of people not only in the community but across the World.

Lesandro Would have turned 16 on November 11th 2018.

Hopefully safe havens are created where children in these neighborhoods can go to to spend time and be mentored.downloadfile

DATING AFTER 40

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Which one of you has not made any Mistakes in the last Decade?
Perhaps you married your mistake and then years down-the-line realized that it was a major regret?

Some people arent even married a year ,ready to Call it quits.
Time goes by the days the years and before you know it…. you’re 40 your single… and back available on the dating scene.

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All the jokes you told in your 20’s about 40 year olds and their cats being home alone on Friday nights are looking all too realistic right now.

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If you have children they’re getting older they’re hanging out with their friends and doing their own thing.
If you have friends some of them are married some of them are divorced and the rare wonderful fun few are single and you see how they’re living their lives and having a great time . Going out and having fun .THAT becomes a little harder when you are a single parent but it is possible with the right preparation , The spontaneous impulses can’t really be there.

Is it really that bad starting fresh and dating at 40?

There’s plenty of people after 40 years old who are newly dating. AND probly having the most fun may have in years by doing so!

I give credit to those of you who stuck through their marriages through hard times and bad,the cheating ,whatever it was that made it work. Some marriages are strong and there some people who just stay for the kids or stay because they want to prove they can say with somebody for 20 plus years. Then there are the people who are actually happy in the marriages and much kudos to you guys!!!

40 is the new 30, it’s not like what it used to be in the 80’s when you were 40 ,you were going on 65 years old.

Everything’s done online the dating sites- meeting people , which for me can make it a bit challenging because I like their face-to-face contact but we’re living in a new era ,a new world.

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At 40 people are ” supposedly” more mature and they have a good idea about how they want to live their lives what they want to do and who they are.
Dating after 40 can be an adventure, go for it!!!

And let us know if you are dating and can make any dating site recommendations.

I’d love to hear your experience of dating after 40!

My son remembered the day he was born

If anyone else had told me this I wouldn’t believe it. I would think that an adult told the kid to say this and I would just laugh.
But this is some crazy stuff that my very own son at 2 years old repeated to me.
We Were down in Chinatown parked on a busy street. I was in the passenger side and my son was in the back buckled in his car seat.
He was 2 years old he always love to talk and sing, he was always an over all happy baby and hes a happy child now.
What came out of his mouth that day still to this day just has the hairs on my arms standing up.

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He told me that he remembers swimming in the water where it was so more and everything was nice and then one day the water was disappearing and he felt like he was drowning but then he saw a light and the light was so pretty so he was swimming towards the light and he said it was really hard to get help out of the opening but finally he came out and he saw me.
Was this really has 1st memory?

In my life ,this is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard .

I’ve always felt like my babies or crystal Children. They are part of the Indigo babies.
Now I truly believe that the babies to hold that memory of the day they are born.