Gypsy soul

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I’ve always gotten so easily bored, I never understood why I kept wanting and wondering.

Because of circumstances in my life I was unable to travel the way I wanted to but there were different parts of the world that call my name.

More so the Southwest, Vegas, places that I’ve never seen before  and of course it’s hard when you have small children and you’re grounded because of school because of their friends their life you just can’t get up  And go. You have responsibilities we have kids. And as much as a single mother would like to take her children everywhere that her heart desires on these road trips to other countries it’s hard. And this is not the woe is me factor this is the reality of it.

I’ve wondered too why so many things I do are so in the moment impulsive spontaneous as if I’m just like a free person ,free spirit. My love for nature..my love everything beautiful. My Passion to be just free just to be who I am. That wondering that wandering its endless.

I really dont care about what other people think except from my kids. In relationships I can never be told what to do ..ever.  When I’m dating or in a relationship I can’t have that other person  Give a    Hint that they are telling me what to do because it turns me off.

Sometimes in relationships and dating I easily get bored. It’s more so easily turned off because I don’t like being told what to do, I don’t like being asked what time im  coming home ,I don’t like any of that period I don’t like people checking in on me and expecting me to tell them my whereabouts I’ve never been like this and I never will be.

And I feel as though my soul needs to be constantly awoken stimulated happy free. I feel like a constantly have to be on the move doing something creating, poetry, writing, art.

I need inspiration I need someone to inspire me sometimes and when I feel that I’m not getting that of someone there comes the gypsy soul and I feel it’s time for me to go.

 

 

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My son remembered the day he was born

If anyone else had told me this I wouldn’t believe it. I would think that an adult told the kid to say this and I would just laugh.
But this is some crazy stuff that my very own son at 2 years old repeated to me.
We Were down in Chinatown parked on a busy street. I was in the passenger side and my son was in the back buckled in his car seat.
He was 2 years old he always love to talk and sing, he was always an over all happy baby and hes a happy child now.
What came out of his mouth that day still to this day just has the hairs on my arms standing up.

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He told me that he remembers swimming in the water where it was so more and everything was nice and then one day the water was disappearing and he felt like he was drowning but then he saw a light and the light was so pretty so he was swimming towards the light and he said it was really hard to get help out of the opening but finally he came out and he saw me.
Was this really has 1st memory?

In my life ,this is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard .

I’ve always felt like my babies or crystal Children. They are part of the Indigo babies.
Now I truly believe that the babies to hold that memory of the day they are born.